From 'She refused to cry' to My incantations

I read some 'little woman', one of the words - "She refused to cry" have inspired me.
It stands for somethings with dominating self. To dominate temper even inner heart is like to control, but not the forced feeling at all, coz "The dominate" is at the first place at the first second. This initiative dominance suits me pretty much. It likes a kind of dominating incantation. Like I refuse to give up. I refuse to be sad.
Another incantation to me is "Choose". "I choose to smile, I choose to go on. "
The third one is "allow". "No one can offend me without my allowable" "I allow myself to forgive the rude people.".."I do not allow life hurt me."
The next one is a sencents "Have I still copied myself? " It lets me chase different challenges.

"Have I still copied myself? " I refuse to cry but choose to smile, I allow myself to throw into the life.