Driving -101-2

If let me say today's key words, I would pick some words: happy, confident, exciting, funny, interesting, great, lucky, humour, consciousness of safe, don't rush, follow in order and advance step by step.... wow all is great words, yes, today is pretty great to me. I grasped the essential of driving car very quickly, indeed, I can drive by myself.
In the morning, I got the school and started to look for my coach and practing car by my driving order piece. "Excuse me? Do you know where is No.616?" I lost in hundreds of cars and asked a teacher who was cleaning his car. "oh, it's over there behind us, black cars team", I looked at that drection by his point. "wow, there are ranked pretty new black cars, very cool. " my first four-wheels machine driving coach, who is typical bj guy with special humourous. He taught me the lesson1 with step by step, which are some safty knowledges, start and stop the car, turn the corner, shifting gears or something else. I followed each order by my coach and did well in every action. When the car first moved by me, I didn't believe myself, and thought my coach with another system to drive on side. Oh, so exciting. When I made mistake, my coach point them out then encourage me all the time. Althought I would meet different coach and cars each time, the first coach whether can give me a good base is important. He made it! Thank him very much. After that the coach found I learned very fast with grasping the essential action, so he thought that I have a high comprehansion and taught me the content of lesson12! ---- how to start and stop the car on a very sharp slope. To my surprise, that is not hard than I thought before.
I found concentration is vital to drive, if I lost it in a while, my car will press separatory line on road. In fact, the coach gave me a lesson about regular of learning, it can fit in everythings - Don't rush in any time, Follow in order and advance step by step, then everything could be made without extra effort.

Driving -101

After I passed the exam of driving rule, today, I got the first driving lesson on a simulate machine. Although, it does not drive on a real car, it is important and very useful to learn the basic knowledges about car. It started from the function of those meters, the right way to hold the steering wheel, how to start, how to change the stalls? (I'm not sure about the words) , oh I found there are many special words about car I don't know.Well, I would try to update later.

By the way, I meet a girl, who is piano teacher in dancing college. It's funny start. When I had a seat and look those treadles. I said to myself "oh, I'm sure it will pretty easy to those person mastered piano" "I am that one" a girl reply me "a ?" I took my head on the right and found a girl there. "wow, really?" "yeah, I am the piano teacher in dancing college and I can play pi-pa too " "wo, you should definitely teach me!! I learned some when I was a little girl, but did not go on, so pity. " "hehehe" ......Then I found she worked during the lesson, so I remember, if you wanna master new technical, just work hard and practice a lot. very nice girl...... See, I got a new friend again. Actually I usually get new friend in any case.;)

Fine

I am fine.... OK, on outside, I afraid. (update in 30th)

I am a sad idiot

I'm the idiot in love.
...
Now I can understand there is said
" The most sadness things in the world is I with you but you don't know I'm fall in love."

(deleted) let begones by begone...
...
But the moment is gone now.
There is not ever never the idiotic girl like me.
I don't want to expend the embittered to others.
Just bear by myself and I will try to save the deep sadness and hurt in my deep heart.

So hard. Really really feel helpless.

...

So sad that it deprives my smile and only leave me tears. Can not write more. Please let the grievous time gone. Please~

Can't breathe~

Please, Please, Please,
Don't let your imagination hurt yourself.
Although you are so sensitive, please be tough.
Oh, my god, there is a whirlpool that draw me to sink,
help, help,help,
I cry but it's useless.
just sink, deeper deeper, deeper.
Nobody can help me, so helpless, so sadness.
can't breathe~
......
Yeah, I have to admit.
now, I can't breathe...

Grammar mistake

Making basic grammar mistakes is like wearing shorts to attend a formal. It can't be tolerated, and it's even objectionable. Other people see and sneer it inwardly but never tell. So the person wearing "the shorts" is fearless with ignorance and repeats the mistakes again and again. When a person who can't bear it points out it with good will, the shorts-wearer feels extreme shame. So the wise thing is to learn how to dress decently as soon as possible before it becomes a huge joke. Thanks to the sincere person who makes the shorts-wearer aware of her mistakes. It causes shame but is definitely appreciated.

Not exciting...

Not exciting...a little disappointed...I prepared a lot...that moment missed...Not exciting.

A little fed up

I am a little fed up now,
I have to
I want
I should
I can change,
CHANGE to save myfelf.

Will come ture

Draw a picture of future life in heart with more concrete details and plots, then know clearly how to shorten the distance for it.
Only can be grasped is try to perform well in every fragment of life according to the will, and choose become self in every twinkling.
Then,time will let the will come ture.

Hao shi duo mo

Just now, P ask me out with them to happy valley, I really wanna go... (quiet)... OK, you bet, the next word is BUT. Yeah, still my skin problem, I have a little fed up it without any choice. They said my skin on face is very thin, don't fit to use other cures anymore, all can I do is protect my skin more careful than usual.
I can only tell him "hao shi duo mo". that's a chinese idiom, means the road to a good thing would be strewn with setbacks, but the more setbacks you meet, the more happy you get when the things come to.Coz good thing is still the good thing, would not turn bad.
I have to delay to meet him for a long time. ...
And it is the same on my job case. I am sure now the thing is still in the second-term, and also can be called "hao shi duo mo", I do not let it slide in overdue-term, promise to myself.

Be sure myself

Today, I attended the exam of driving rule, and I score 99,( although, my goal is to get full mark- 100. )

No exciting, coz no fluke.
I was earnest to prepare and serious to do it. So, I knew it should be my desert.

Not only this little tiny success, stretching in any plans.
Be expected to cool, then can feel the progress step by step.

During the whole process, a strong power will be gained gradually
- That is 'be sure myself'.
This power let me smile in any moment, confident forever.

Human • God • Animal

Human is the composition of God and Animal.

Follow the conduct from deity in heart,

or

Be dictated by animal body indulgently.

All depends on the willed choice.

Be unable to comprehend it forever

Life is beautiful, precious and brief.

But sometimes still can see meteors falling down.

Deeply comprehend those people who meet with extremely unfairness.

But never be able to comprehend their end themself so rashly.

Because, our life is not only belong to ourselves, but also belong to everyone who love us.

Actually, end life rashly is an extreme selfishness.

Be unable to comprehend it forever.

Fantasy

Fantasy is everything to me.

Unbelievable

Life is UNBELIEVABLE.
This moment I cry,
Next I smile.
All depend on mood.
A philosopher said:

Sow a mood, gain a thought,

Sow a thought, gain an action,

Sow an action, gain a habit,

Sow a habit, gain a disposition,

Sow a disposition, gain a fate.

!

Mood decide life.

Just be good.

Independence & Control

CONTROL yourself for INDEPENDENCE.

INDEPENDENCE then CONTROL yourself.

Piano

Listen,

the sounds of Piano,

So natural, so smooth, so pure.

Let my eyebrows dance with each note.

I closed my eyes,

Just listen the melody, quietly and softly,

It flows from these lovable black white keys,

Bring my minds to the heaven.

I am sure.

Piano would charm to me forever.

Crazy reading

I love to read and have no certain field, it ranges from novels like little women to how to manage money matter, though there are big parts of books about arts, creative stuffs, design, storytelling, thinking way,advertising and culture etc in my bookcase.
I love the reading feeling, that's kind of an attractive power and let you concentrate all you minds to enjoy in books and then I will be changed unawares. I firmly believe books is the most miraculous things in the world.
Today my order books are sent to me, wow, so exciting! Now it's tme to crazy reading!

Incantation %$#@&*

I worried about my face with red spot mark, hope they has totally gone.
%$#@&* ~~~ gone~ gone~ gone ~~~

I mumble some incantations to myself, hope it can be effective soon.
%$#@&* ~~~ soon~ soon~ soon ~~~

I told myself everything is go on, hope I keep happy all the time.
%$#@&* ~~~ happy~ happy~ happy ~~~

Now ... (quiet)

Stop to move on.

:P

As my own view, I want to line drawing of a nice man- P-...
He is not only the outside of gentle behavior, but also in his inner heart. Keep good manner hold sweet smile, sometime play a little humors are my first impression on him. Maybe It's about his self-cultivation, or he used to be decent in any moment. He is kind and patience all the time. When I made some very funny mistakes, he would not point out directly, but will correct them with smile unconsciously. It means he can care about your probable slight feeling, either with intensive attention or not. (....;).

I have some intuitions on his insight. ...He is the type who knows how to enjoy life, coz he is fond of delicious food and cooking by himself.
He loves the nature, coz his favorite sports are all about natural on body.
He is wit, coz the people who often make introspection always has good perception.
He knows what's the exactly measure in life, coz he is good at technology. That's a deeply point which is wit of life.
He appraises himself as a shy man, in my opinion, it's just a kind of modest and amiable. Or a real shy man would not have enough courage to chase his dreams. It can be seen that he holds great ambitious. He can listen to what's his heart saying and do it resolutely with clear minds on himself and he seems have been unflinching, so nothing can stop him in halfway. That's really awesome.
...
...(deleted)
Well, All above is about the droplets of life and I have to say line drawing of a person is not really easy. Just keep for good memories.:)

Update my stone-box

Recently, I come to realize and get some new precious stones, put them with others:

• If the first choice make the tragedy that has already happened on you, the second choice which keep step with you will more vital, which can decide the tragedy go on or stop, even to arise more tragedies OR decrease your loss then start to turn round a new luck. All depends on how to drive your minds, the more fast to cut off the effects of your first bad mood, the less loss you deserve and the more better results you will get. That is the key point of controlling life, Trust it!
• If the situation is passive to you, try to change it into active as soon as possible, don't waste life in depression, but waste it in finding luck and happiness.
• Virtually, having the feeling of driving life in any clear moment is the most worthy experience in the world.
• No matter how yearning the view is, if you don't prepare well sufficiently before, it would only be a spark but not the real flame. So, just leave enough 'more' to prepare.
• Everything have been moving on three terms,the first term is called keeping-fresh, the second term called keeping-quality. The last term is called overdue. When you do it in keeping-fresh, you can get it perfect with easy happy. When you do it in the second term, you need work a little hard with pressure to make it. Pressure is inverse with happy. The later you do, the more obstructions you put them by yourself, and the less happy you get. Let alone do it in the overdue-term. That is the reason why the slogan-'Just do it!' is so Great. Now just pay attention what's the term of your matter now?!

• Keep objectivity to consider the world, don't ever say such as "I think" "I consider "I feel" often in daily life, although it needs express your own attitude, try to voice objectively. More fairly, better survivable.
• By interesting, do it on your own initiative actively. Don't think too much those meaningless things. When you chase your dream, it should be not any tiny scruple would obstruct you. Never empty talk, it is said, JUST DO IT!
• Keep in mind, resolution is an awesome attractable deeply charming. Always hold brave to go on your decision. Resolution build up confidence, it is the foundation of everything.
• Never lose your heart and own dream, no matter in any case. Don't care any other subjectivity at all. Just care how to perfect yourself without selfishness.
• Remember, Use your character to affect others, do not let others take effects on you easily. On the other side, having observed others' good points carefully which are really worth learning, absorb them and make use on your own.
• Never be frustrated, thus you will never purposeless.
• Comprehend regulation at the first time and obey them as soon as possible, it will let you calm and unhurried.
• Try to express concisely with precise words and tone with humor is more wit.
• Create your own routine fitly in daily, follow and enjoy them, you can see processed step by step till it called success by common. What else? be efficient and know clearly what's the most importance and do it on orderliness in anytime.
• The essence of Life is used for challenge continually, not just submit.
• Be amiable and approachable, always keep shallow smile on your face. Affinity is the first step of communication.
• Everything you do is for surviving more and more perfect.

Motionless

Life is motionless.
One second,
I am here.
Two minutes,
I am here.
Three hours,
I am here.
Four days,
I am still here.
...
I am motionless with pulse.
There are choices without choice.
Where is the exit while where is the entrance.
In fact,
I am motionless with me.

Believe in Miracle

Like Amélie, you've got faith on Miracle in everyday, every moment, every minute, every second. Believe in it, or, Miracle would never rap your door first. However, I don't let you trust to windfalls, you'd better prepare and do you best on it. Just keep leaving a door open for letting the miracle go in...
God would bless me.

Mumbling

Now, I just like a little girl who have strong desire for coming back to the game. If the God really existed, I hope he can hear my little words.

If you would know there is nothing in the end, Will you go on?
I don't know, but I wanna try, It is just the marrow of life, isn't it? Keep trying to taste every tastes of life with sincere in deeper deeper heart...

Why need I think too much? Just be simple then it is simple.
Only simple can make me feel the pure feeling I got. "Pure" without any complicated things in it. It is a kind of happiness, holding it, and believing in it forever...

When you have feeling on someone...

When you have feeling on someone, you become very sensitive when others refers to his name inadvertently.

When you have feeling on someone, you're nervous and tense when see him and feel hot and like a simpleminded naive girl.

When you have feeling on someone, you always crave for seeing him in any time or would become in fidgety.

When you have feeling on someone, you're care about his all and bear in mind quietly.

When you have feeling on someone, you're find it becomes not easy to sleep at night because you always miss him in whole day.

When you have feeling on someone, you do some changes on yourself for him unconsciously.

When you have feeling on someone, you do some works for helping him but often too late to let him know.

When you have feeling on someone, your heart become more fragile and usually can't control yourself to weep for a nightmare about him.

When you have feeling on someone, you learn how to think about for others (esp. him) and to learn unselfish anymore.

When you have feeling on someone, you feel more sadness when you understand his hurts.

When you have feeling on someone,you totally don't care about whatever the others say, even they misunderstand your emotion.
......

Well, is all the above called the "LOVE" feeling or just the feeling of loving inwardly to "someone"? I have no idea......

Allergy

I am not a allergic physique, so never got allergy before, but this time I have to "win the prize" for those "perfect facial mask" , now my face like a big apple with red spots, just like one of icon- shy face in msn.:$ . So awful :( , I swear never never use that kinds of facial mask randomly & carelessly!!!!

Today, I went to see the doctor who is famous on skin problem. She gave me some cures which was like to cool off skin by an apparatus, and my face should head-on the cool water vapor from it. Then she took me some medicines and an injection, and told me a bad news - "That's ok ,you've got be totally fine in next two weeks", Wow, two weeks, all of my plans have to be postpone.

All is from the 'favor' of those evil facial masks.

I

Can't meet friends.

Can't get interview.

Can't go to the exam of driving rule.

Can't learn driving.

Can't eat those spicy food I like.

Can't drink milk ,eggs and fish too much.

Can't face computer all the time coz the radiation.

.... lots of can't do......

But that's ok, I got be fine. Although it's bad, it teachs me how to get temperance at least.

I'm sure I will come back pretty , coz I would always be smile:)

Positive Dariy:)

I gotta

be ok,

be fine,

be good,

be splendid,

be better,

be nice,

be great,

be best,

be superior,

be fabulous,

be excellent,

be first-rate,

be striking,

be wonderful,

be astonishing,

be incredible,

be amazing,

be marvelous,

be outstanding,

be exceptional,

be perfect,

....................................... in my life:)

Acquired Noble

Acquired Noble

To live like an acquired noble.

Never slight or undisciplined to myself and others.

Be positive to live, be natural to breath.

To respect myself and acquire others respect naturally.

Always keep rising corners of mouth to feel comfortablly and sincerely.

Be practising scholarly, personality, savor culture.

Keep independence on thinking and spirit.

Control life by myself virtually.

Then, I have already been

a real acquired noble. :)

Smile:)

I find a secret of life — smile. Last time when I take mirror and worried about my darkeyes and eyebags, I set up a smile to myself unconsciously. Wow, the eyebags look like disappear in around skin. when I take back smile, they are still there, but smile really can make me feel good. Oh, I'm sure that I got the secret of life!

I dicover how miraculous and deeply rewarding it is to be rise your corners of mouth.
I am pretty sure it can changes my life.:)

When I want to eliminate my problem skin, I smile.
When I want to let me happy, I smile.
When I feel not bad, I smile.
When I see some good or warm things, I smile.

When I sleep, I smile for wishing have a good dream.
When I wake up, I smile for having a new day.
When I do sport, I smile for keeping healthy.
When I take a photo, I smile for leaving good memory.

When I get my goals, I smile.
When I obtain confirmation from other people, I just smile.
When I fall down, I smile.
When I meet ruthless suffering, I smile resolutly.

When I meet people, I smile for being affinity.
When I leave me alone, I smile for myself.
When I feel unhappy, I smile for make-believe on happy.
When I take memories, no matter they were good or bad, I smile for 'Let bygones be bygone'.

I am accustomed to rise my corners of mouth, even I feel sad or want to cry.
I would always be smile. Although some smiles would make-believe, I do believe it become a reality in the end. :)

Pure Girl

I come back a pure girl.
It's a beautiful feeling since I realize 'prue' is how much marvelous.
All is from Amélie, yes, the angel in the movie.
She really changes my life.

I have similar feeling in growing with her.
I felt lonely in childhood, so indulged in my own fantasy everyday.

Gradually, I grow up with my real dream and decied to come true it.
But, during the course, I fall down, not one time, many times,it arouse me have to learn being tough in life, but at the meanwhile, I lost myself,my natural temperament in girlish.

After some suffering, I realize I should come back to be a pure girl, who is gentle and lovely, Smart and Naive, like my name online.

I'd love to smile like Amélie, a little artful pixie or a naughty sylph. Always has creaive ideas.
Gently outside, steadfast inside.

It is actually like a magnet with S-N point, more pure, more attractive. I think smart girl know how to keep the pure by loving herself. She has her own points, wits and humor, objectivity to others, and individual character in herself. And 'Naive' would make her more fine to look upon the world.

I would like come back a pure girl.
I would like be the gril like Amélie.

Keep the promise

Lost in that last two days, I got a driving-rule lessons, which was from 7am to 7pm, but the school is very far, so I needed to get up at 5am to catch the regular bus. Thanks to my persisting in sport, I was pretty ok in the last two days, although it would be very tired to go during more than 12hours lessons by my thought.

The most impression was when the teacher played a video which talked about traffic incidents, I was scared seriously, It was awful with sympathy to see those terrible scene, why they didn't obey the rule of traffic? Okay, I have no right to censure other people.
I should keep myself to obey, but that's not enough, coz, you can't guarantee others would harm to you. Anyway, the most and the basic point to me is to keep calm down all the time when I need drive a car.

It increases my character called cool-headed, coz, nobody would love to make joke on their life. Seriously, keep in mind.

Lost in the last two days

Lost in the last two days，I'm sure it changes my mood forever! Interesting, will to talk later,
I promise. :)

Trouble

I got trouble on my darkeyes and eyesbag. They let me unhapply for a long time, when I look at my eyes, my mood would be tortured by them, what'm I gonna do, I want to change! Surgery? o, worried about it. I feel so helpless. :(

Start from 'My blueberry nights'

Here, I have not watched this movie yet but just look the trailers and snapshots, so I wouldn't talk about movie itself, just talk some shining points in my mind about the project.

Its director is Kar Wai Wong who appraised by Norah Jones, the leading actress of the movie, "he knows what exactly what he wants". That's one of points make me feeling.

How many people can know what exactly what they want? When you know it, you keep the key of life. If you can know "what exactly what I want in every moment", that power is inestimable.

Another moment is a part of talking between Jude Law and Norah Jones. Jude Law is doing a Cafe, he used for helping customers who left keys to keep their keys, it sounds like a keyholder, he said: " It's more a sorts of the ideas the coffee ship is center for people to drop off pass relationships or leave the door open for past relationships to continue."

Norah ask: why do you keep them? you should just throw them out.
Jude said: Noow , I couldn't do that.
Norah ask: Why not?
Jude said: If I throw these keys away, and the doors would be closed forever,actually It should not make me to decide. should it?

Good script can stretch plentiful laryers of feelings, it would bring people to think or connect in one's mind. It contaions the deep meanings in simple terms. That is one of charming part of movie.

Well, beside above. I would update if I like.

Routine

To strengthen my stamina and healthy, I keep somethings in routine.

• Keep fit

I persist in skipping 2000 times everyday. It was divided into three section: 500times in the morning for warning-up, 500times in the afternoon for keeping waking, 1000times during 5pm to 6pm for toughen internal organs. It would feel really pleasant after skip and stand for my stamina and piysical get stronger and stronger.
Then I skate (roller-skate) for a while, coz, I'm just beginnger with it, I need to keep the skating feeling. However, I never trip up so far. This pair of roller-skates is a gift from my friends DS, which is just one side four-rollers that I never try before. In addition, I have no experience with skating, so when I tried them first at sport shop, I worried about falling down, but that was not happend. Maybe, I really have some talent in keep balance. :p
Now, I 'm pretty sure that I will make it as a long-term physical exercise in the future.

• Learning language

Firstly, I need to point learing language is a awesome experience. It need be touched everyday, don't muddle along or you would get nothing.

About writing, one of my learning method is blogging. This way can make me keep the feeling on English, moreover, it would imporve the english-writing capability.

To reinforce the reading comprehension, I would read original edition English articles via flavorpill which is a kind of mail-magazine orded by me. Beside it I would read New-concept 4 one lesson per day. And some magazine which are interesting such as National Geography, some novels, What's more, I'm pretty force myself to read some books about visual culture.

Extensive reading can enlarge my knowledges, keep my english feeling which let me use to english thinking way directly, and more important is that can expand my point of view for using my english wirting.Intensive reading has more substantial effect. I would enrich my vocabulary of english, absorb lots of wonderful unadulterated expression of english and increase my level actually. Since it mentions to expend vocabulary, I would keep learn some good stuff with steady steps. And if possible, some good grammer book is pretty useful too.

About listening, I would practise excellent teaching-stuff like listen to this, and try to get one lesson per day. Beside it, I would watching TV-show, listen the TV script and listen english sounds-book. To enhance my perceptivity in english sounds.

Then is speaking, I'm sure I have talent on pronunciation, the more necessary thing to me is that recite some pure speaking expression and fabulous essay.

• Last but not least

As blogging in English everyday, I would blog in Chinese too. The english blog is just here. and Chinese version is settled in other space.

I would read majority book in my bookcase which are all my yearn for reading but no time before. especially one book called a whole new mind that I would practice myself with following it. Actually, I have already been inborn some characters which mentioned by this book.

And collect new inspirations, music, every creative things and informantion as usual.

What else?

en, I think is to keep in good repair my skin and try to go sleep before midnight. better before 11pm.

Okay. so far, Done. I would update my routine and keep unremittingly. GO!

08 - My EPOCH

Now is the first day of 2008, I decide do not waste any one day in this year, every day I should obtain something to me, good or bad, anyway useful at least. That means, I should introspect and keep clarity in mind everyday, it's great way to enrich myself. What's more, I have feelings, no, intense feelings about this year, which can be predicted that I will change clearly, virtually control my life even fate. Last year,no matter suffering, hardship on my spirit and body, really did torture me for a long time, BUT they did not conquer me far away. My spirit has been surviving and my body has been recovering too. These mind tribulation bring me in harvest immensely, which let me learn some precious stones below:

• Keep objectivity to consider the world, don't ever say such as "I think" "I consider "I feel" often in daily life, although it needs express your own attitude, try to voice objectively. More fairly, better survivable.
• By interesting, do it on your own initiative actively. Don't think too much those meaningless things. When you chase your dream, it should be not any tiny scruple would obstruct you. Never empty talk, it is said, JUST DO IT!
• Keep in mind, resolution is an awesome attractable deeply charming. Always hold brave to go on your decision. Resolution build up confidence, it is the foundation of everything.
• Never lose your heart and own dream, no matter in any case. Don't care any other subjectivity at all. Just care how to perfect yourself without selfishness.
• Remember, Use your character to affect others, do not let others effect you easily. On the other side, having observed others' good points carefully which are really worth learning, absorb them and make use on your own.
• Never be frustrated, thus you will never purposeless.
• Comprehend regulation at the first time and obey them as soon as possible, it will let you calm and unhurried. Keep concisely in saying and doing.
• Create your own routine fitly in daily, follow and enjoy them, you can see processed step by step till it called success by common. What else? be efficient and know clearly what's the most importance and do it on orderliness in anytime.
• The essence of Life is used for challenge continually, not just submit.
• Be amiable and approachable, always keep shallow smile on your face. Affinity is the first step of communication.
• Everything you do is for surviving more and more perfect.

Now, Definitely & Absolutely, 08 is My EPOCH.